Summer review and a spicy comfort meal that will chase the sorrows away!

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Amazing how fast time flies. It seems as though I barely had time to catch my breath during summer break, and now… here come classes in less than two weeks. This summer has been full of many ups and downs. I started off with the release from my chiropractor and physical therapist to start aqua jogging and lifting weights. A dear friend of mine bought a gym membership for me for my birthday, so I was so excited to be able to get back into the gym and start rebuilding my health. Little did I know, that would quickly come to an end. You see, many of the exercises at my physical therapist gave me worsened my health situation. Due to overly tight abdominal/ psoas muscles along with IT band pain (brought on by the band exercise given by the PT) my health began to go down hill once again. Outside of work, and responsibilities, I spent a great portion of my time in bed icing, heating, and just trying to find some relief. After a while, that became my comfort zone. I found myself getting off work and looking forward to heading to bed to lose myself in binge watching episodes of various TV shows. Yeah… I get it… totally unhealthy!
In the midst of the trials, a childhood dream of mine began to come to life. I dear friend of mine invited me to an event that sent me into a series of working in a field that I’ve always dreamed of. For now, due to the status of the project, I’m not at liberty to discuss the details. I will say though that while working on this project, I came to life! I would come home and my body just felt like I could do more regardless of my back issues. It’s as if every cell in my body ignited with joy and with passion knowing that I was on a road toward what I was born and created to do! If there were anything I could ever have in this world as a career, I would choose this. “Despise not the days of small beginnings” right?
Annnywho, finally I got sick of the work and bead routine. I was missing time with my beautiful nephew and mom.. isolated in misery, focused on all the pain and reminiscing on shattered dreams when something stirred in me. After my mom expressed how she felt about my behavior, my eyes opened and I was determined to fight back! I started stretching, and doing everything I possibly could to help my body feel better. I started watching movies with my nephew, pushed myself out to enjoy some time at a local beach with my family regardless of the pain, went on a few short walks alone, and did my best to enjoy what I do have.

Things seemed to improve for only a moment when I hit yet ANOTHER BUMP! This landed me at the Chiropractor two days in a row… feeling like there was a huge screwdriver being shoved in my lower back, hobbling through each day and praying to God I would be able to walk the next day. As my mom drove me home after my most recent visit to the Chiro… I sat there, looking at the legs that once took me flying through trails, over hills and mountains and streets… that now….. have a hard time making it through a day’s work let alone a nice walk on a walking trail. In other words…. they were nearly failing me. At that point, I broke… I. just. broke…. “what can I do about this semester? I can’t bear to face another one in this amount of pain! What about my dreams? What about the things I’ve always wanted to do with my life? Why is it that it seems that every time I reach for something things seemed crumble between my fingers?” All these thoughts began to rush through my head. Then I declare it out loud, “I will run again! This is temporary! God has a good plan for my life! I refuse to back down! I’m not giving up!” So, with these declarations, I’ve decided to go from a certain chiropractic company that is just surface level treatment and not working for me to working with someone I worked with before, who knows my history, does more in depth work and who will hopefully help me get some answers.
As for my eating patterns, it’s been an up and down roller coaster with me. There are days when I meet my calorie requirements, days when I exceed them, and days when I fail miserably at coming close to what I need to sustain and live. The fact of the matter is that I thought that being weight restored would make everything better. That somehow my body would magically begin to agree with me and allow me to have more freedom. This wasn’t the case. As a result I’ve daily battled the internal desire to do what the world has done time and again to me… abuse me. The thing is, this is a battle I’m determined to win with the power of God. Others may have abused me but I am not a victim! Others may have hurt me but I will not fall prey to self-pity or temptation to self abuse!
Today, I’ll leave you with this. I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I know I have dreams of being an actor, traveling the world, of being able to provide not only for my family and for myself… but also give back to the world around me, to make a difference in the lives of those around me for the glory of God… however, I learned that I have to leave everything out before the Lord and let him direct my path. His will. Not mine. Below is a recipe for a delicious time meal that I adapted from one that was given to me through a friend at the following link:

20 min Thai basil beef

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Thai Basil Turkey

Ingredients
~ 1 pound of ground turkey
~ 2 shallots, diced
~ 2 red bell peppers diced
~ 4 cloves garlic, chopped (I forgot to put this in when I originally tried the recipe)
~ 1 jalapeño pepper
~ 1 Anaheim pepper
~ 1 package of shredded red cabbage
~ 1 tablespoon honey (I didn’t measure mine when I put it in and probably added more than this)
~ 1 lime, juice and zest
~ 1/2- 1 cup basil (I bought a mini basil tree from sprouts market)
~ 2 green onions, thinly sliced
~ sea salt to taste

Directions
Place the turkey and shallots in the pan to cook until almost thoroughly cooked through. Add the remaining veggies and basil, along with the lime juice and honey and simmer until veggies are tender and turkey is thoroughly cooked. The original recipe calls for soy sauce, tamari sauce, OR fish sauce. I’m allergic to soy and tamari, and didn’t have any fish sauce so I opted out of it all. Feel free to try using anyone of those options if you’d like. I served mine with brown rice. As a result, it was a wonderful meal after dealing with a serious day of pain! Perfect comfort food!

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Until next time… God bless and as always… keep pressing on!

 

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What I Ate Wednesday: A journey through my recovery and my 3000+ calorie days

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*disclaimer: I am not a healthcare professional yet. Therefore, anything that is stated in this blog is from personal experience and research that I’ve done. If you or someone you know is seeking out a recovery method, converse with your healthcare professional first. I am not your doctor.*

Hey y’all! I’m back again! Upon a couple of requests from Instagram and what not I am posting a WIAW (What I ate Wednesday)! As many of you know by now I have chosen to go with the Minnie Maud method for anorexia-athletica recovery. I gave a link to the guidelines for this recovery method in my last post. And this post I’m going to get a little more detailed about what I went through and what I’m currently going through in using the method.

Now, my journey through the Minnie Maud method started when I realized that I wasn’t all that serious about my recovery. I wanted to gain weight. I was gaining weight. However, I wasn’t free. I was still only eating between 1500 and 2000 cal a day. I was still very limited as to what I included my diet as well. My chiropractor kept reminding me of how small I was. It just kept grading on my nerves. Finally, I came across a picture on Instagram from @dropsifjules about her experience in using this method and why she would do it again. I quickly went to her post, read over it and read over the other materials that she had included in her blog relating to that topic. I then went on to do further research in regards to this method. I even continue to do so today! And really it all makes sense!

You see, in the Minnie Maud method, one who is recovering looks at their age range and where they are as far as their eating disorder is concerned. The MINIMUM intake requirement for someone in recovery is 2500 cal. For my age bracket between 2500 and 3000+. Say whatttt????? Yes, that’s right! 3000+ calories a day! PLUS, no working out! I know it sounds crazy and it’ll freak anyone with an eating disorder out! First off I will say that you need to gradually increase. Just jumping to 2500 cal after depriving yourself for years is not safe. It’s in fact, irresponsible. Gradually increase by 100 to 200 cal every few days.

So, I’m sure the question has arisen as to why one would need so many calories. So, I’m going to answer that. While taking physiology last fall, I learned that the body is a live organism that functions primarily on the nutrients that it is given. Each cell exchanges a certain amount of sodium and potassium which creates an imbalance inside the cell so that other nutrients can be exchanged and brought into the bloodstream for proper functioning of the body. When someone deprives them selves of nutrients those exchanges are not being done properly within the cell. This can cause damage not only to the cells, but to the muscles, and many organs of the body. In order to compensate your heart rate drops, hair falls out, you get cold, menstruation stops, etc. in order for your body to reserve what little energy it has to keep you alive. At one point your body will begin to eat itself and that’s when death begins to creep in. A good article to read it in relation to this is a life without anorexia. Your body needs all those calories in order to heal and restore everything that has been destroyed by the eating disorder. So, in order to properly recover one has to eat like an athlete in the peak of their performance! FYI for those of you who think they have to eat limited calories while in athletics… think again! The average Olympian intakes 3000+ calories a day in their peak. Why? Because they understand that they are constantly tearing muscles while training and they need those calories to help them repair and perform better! The same goes in and eating disorder! All that muscle, all those organs that have been destroyed due to lack of a proper nutrition, need every bit of nutrient that they can possibly get in! This means eating whole fat products like milk, olive oil, real ice cream, etc. refraining from taking any diuretics, using lemon water to purge, or even drinking vinegar as a purging option. This only prolongs the recovery period. The body will begin to react by swelling and holding onto things. This is one of the most uncomfortable pieces of recovery, however it’s necessary and worth it. Purpose for refraining from fitness is so that your body can heal without having to deal with the repairing of muscles that you’re tearing while working out. Once the body can finally trust you to continue to nourish it, it Will distribute the weight appropriately and settle into a weight that is proper for your body.That’s when fitness can begin.

This leads me into why I chose so late in my recovery to go with this method and stick with it. I was fed up. My muscles were hurting all the time. My body just wasn’t healing. My life was taken away and I wasn’t able to go for walks and do the things that I love without ending up in pain. I couldn’t figure out why until I started doing all this research. Here I was, not only healing from an injury, but healing from an eating disorder that nearly took my life. Restricting was only leading to further damage and prolonging my healing process. Once I begin to nourish myself I began to feel a difference in how my body felt! My energy levels went back up, my muscles began to feel better, and best of all… I was no longer isolated from the people I loved. There was a point where I had increased too quickly and suffered a bit. The side effects included exhaustion, depression, headaches. However, pushing through it was still worth it. What I learned from this is that there are still some foods that my body does and does not like and it’s OK to try to work around that so long as I’m not restricting and depleting myself. I now stick to a primarily gluten-free regime which has helped a lot of my headaches go away, I only stick to the exercises at my physical therapist has given me plus or minus a few walks here and there, and I’m learning to really enjoy food again. While my health care advisors have advised that I get into the pool and get ready to rebalance so I can run again, AND I feel that my body is ready to exercise… at this point, I’m choosing to go about gently re-introducing it.
I’ll be honest at the beginning of this program I’d gotten sick of food! It didn’t even taste good anymore! With the amount of calories I had to intake it was exhausting, tedious, and got to a point where it just wasn’t enjoyable. However, I’ve learned to balance it out and learn to live outside of focusing on what I’ve got to intake for the day. I learned to listen to my body and what I’m craving and that usually helps me enjoy what I eat. That all being said I’m going to include two days of eating. One is from when I was including pretty much everything whether or not it contain gluten. And one is from yesterday so you all can get an idea of what it takes to get those calories in. Remember that recovery is different for everyone, so this is just an example. You and a healthcare professional need to come to an agreement on what is best for you.

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Take note, I didn’t include the second rice crispy treat in this picture, and I also went back for another piece of pizza

***A day of eating 3000+ cal while including gluten:

May 10, 2017

Breakfast 6am:
blueberry bagel loaded with cream cheese, jelly, glass of milk, apple =700 cal

Snack (9am and 12pm):
1 mango and 1 pineapple Chobani 2% yogurt =330 cal

Lunch 12:30:
2 Trader Joe’s rice crispy treats and a Trader Joe’s turkey and spinach Swiss cheese wrap
= 630 cal

Snack Salad 4:30: salad with 2 serve kidney beans, one serving walnuts a box of raisins, mixture of veggies, double serving of mango chipotle bolthouse farms dressing= 630 cal

Dinner 6:45pm: 1 Tony’s Pizza = 500 cal

Dessert 8 pm: 4 squares of Lindt dark chocolate with pecan butter =375 cal

Total: 3,165 cal

***A day of eating 3000+ cal while limiting gluten
May 30,2017

Breakfast:
Gluten free pancakes, low-fat cream cheese, 2 tablespoons of honey glass of milk, apple ~ 520 cal

Snack:
Chobani simply 100, 2.5cups of mixed fruit ~302 cal

Lunch:
Two red bell peppers, 5 tablespoons of Trader Joe’s hummus, and a sunflower butter sandwich (extra sunflower butter) on Ezekiel bread ~655

Snack:
One head of Romain lettuce, two servings of baby carrots roasted, One cup of roasted broccoli, Red onion, x-large serving of Colby Jack cheese, two servings kidney beans, and two servings of cilantro avocado dressing. ~ 555cal

Dinner
1 & 1/8 cup sunny select beef-aroni (imitation Rice-A-Roni) One egg plus one egg white fried ~440

Dessert
2 cups breyers salted Carmel ice cream =600

Today’s total:
3072 calories

NOTE:  I do count vegetables as calories! However, lettuce I only count as half of its nutritional value .  For example, two large red bell peppers is equivalent to 80 cal.  Two servings of carrots is equivalent to 75 cal, etc, one head of romaine I count as only 50 cal  when and actuality it’s approximately 105 cal

now, before I leave you all I will say that to those of you who have been on this journey with me and have been of support, thank you! You will have no idea how much that means to me! Y’all have been part of why am alive today! To those of you who are viewing and are critical of my journey nothing personal but keep your criticism to yourself. You have no idea what someone goes through  when they’re battling and eating disorder. Therefore, comments like “here take some of my fat”  or shoving things in my face and acting like if I don’t eat them then I’m not recovering are not funny gestures. They are honestly rude and potentially triggering despite how the person doing those things might view them. I’m not in anyway trying to offend anybody, just speaking my heart and mind.  Recovery is a sensitive thing. When you’re insensitive to someone who is recovering, you’re just adding to the pressure.

In closing, I just want to let everyone know that June 2 is the worldwide eating disorder awareness day! It’s also my birthday !!!  So, I’m  praying about composing a special post for that day and possibly doing something to spread awareness! If anyone has any suggestions, please leave them in the comments below!

Spring break with purple sweet potato bread

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Spring break! Here it is, and boy is it beautiful outside! Living in the Bay Area is so incredible! There’s so much color and life in this area it’s unreal! For the first time since I started going to college I’ve had no major homework assignments to focus on or exams to study for, so I’ve tried to make the most of it by enjoying time with my family (eating my new favorite treat… enlightened ice cream bars) and baking.

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Just before spring break started I received two very special packages from a friend of mine in Colorado. Miss Emily sent me a doughnut mold and a jar of Georgia grinders pecan butter! With that, I got straight to work on coming up with new recipes! I haven’t completely mastered the one I’m going to post yet so I’ll save that for another post. However, today I’m going to share a recipe for something I came up with after enduring an emergency dental appointment. To make a long story short, after weeks of having a swollen face, I found out I had an abscess in my lower right jaw. When I went to have it investigated, they found that there was a piece of tooth root left behind from a previous extraction that caused a huge infection. It very well could’ve been connected to the heart problems I was having before. So, after the surgery to remove it, I ended up eating mush for the better part of a few days (still just getting back to eating solid food 😞). During that time I was determined to get my nutrients in. In an effort to do so I came up with a recipe for purple sweet potato bread!

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As for my body in the physical pain, I’ve talked about it so much on here I really just don’t see the point in bringing it up anymore. Y’all know my struggles… Spring break has had its own. Put it this way, once again I’m doing a lot of icing and heating and spending time at home, in pain. Psychologically and emotionally, it’s been wearing however I’m choosing to keep my chin up and praise God through this storm in my body. Well part of me wants to hope that I’ll run again, right now even working out seems impossible. For those of you pray, please pray for me because honestly I just don’t know what to do anymore. The best I can do is move forward, keep praising God no matter how painful this season is, focus on what’s in front of me, try to help others so I get the focus off of me, and bake till I can’t bake anymore! I’m going to cut this one short and leave you all with the recipe for purple sweet potato bread 🍞! I hope y’all have a wonderful spring. I hope to post soon with a new donut recipe!

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Purple sweet potato bread
-1 and 1/2 cup baked, then mashed purple sweet potato
-1 egg
-1 egg white
-1/2tsp baking powder
-1/2 tsp baking soda
-1/2 tsp almond extract
-1/4 tsp cream of tartar
Mix ingredients and bake 350° For 15- 20 min. Let cool and…
You may top with slivered almonds and a drizzle of honey 🍯
OR your favorite nut butter

Dare To Dream With Maple Carrot Cake!

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I was reading this quote this morning in a devotional, and it really struck me how God has planted these tiny seeds of faith and passion in my heart for the ministry that I’ve mentioned before which is human trafficking. Through that passion He’s ignited a fire to help keep me pressing on!

Think about it. Is there anything that you’re so passionate about or you want to give a shot but you’re so afraid to step out and do it?

I found myself, in the past, pulling back because of the war that I face continuously on my life in order to proceed. The constant battle in my health which resulted in another issue this week, the days that I spent in bed in pain, the times of my family barely could make ends meet, the pressure at school, the pressures at work and the horrible things that I’ve experienced there (right down to a man coming through my line and touching himself inappropriately as I was cashiering), as I’ve said many times before there have been times that I felt like I was going to completely throw in the towel, however, it’s when I took that leap of faith and given my dreams all that I’ve got, praying my way all the way through it, that I’ve seen more passion and energy coming through me to accomplish things that I’ve never been able to accomplish before… all by the power of God!

So, today aside from the aspect of recovering from what has been a lifetime of off and on nutritional abuse (both under and over nourishment) aside from the stories of my current trials and struggles (because I mean you think about it who out there isn’t struggling?), aside from this journey that I called life that I’ve invited you along for the ride hoping that somehow my story will help you find peace in the hands of God and courage to press on… today I want to encourage you (despite the giants that face you) find your passion because as a famous quote says:

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Yes, that was probably the world’s longest run-on sentence! Thank the Lord for blogs that allow one to break free from being too picky about grammar and sentence structure!

Anywho, I’m not going to run around saying I’ve done anything great because I haven’t. All I’ve done is take a step faith trusting that God will lead my way. I can tell you I’ve been afraid most of the way through, in pain most of the way through, and struggling most of the way through. Yet, you see… it’s through those struggles, pain and trials that I’m continuing to learn and see that in my weakness, God is made strong!

That being said, I now leave you with a recipe for a carrot cake mug cake that I came up with for my mom’s birthday!

Maple Carrot Cake Mug Cake

Ingredients

– 2 1/2 tablespoons oat flour

– 2 tablespoons grated carrots

– 1/2 teaspoon pumpkin spice

– 1/3  teaspoon baking soda

– 2 tablespoons vanilla almond milk

– 2 1/2 tablespoons  Justin’s maple almond butter

-1 egg

– 2 tablespoons honey or maple syrup

Directions

mix ingredients. Place in mug and place mug in microwave for 1 to 2 minutes on high heat. Take it out of the microwave, drizzle it with a little make both syrup and serve.  I added a packet of wholesome foods Stevia to the mix for extra sweetness! Mom loved it , Little Dude loved it and I loved it!

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I hope y’all have a blessed weekend! If you get an opportunity to try out mug cake, please let me know what you think.  Just so you know I can’t take all the credit for this recipe because I went online and searched over several different recipes. One from land o Lakes as well as Yummily  and I found that most of them are quite  similar. I made minor adjustments and this was the outcome!

 

 

 

Winter Break and food victories

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Love… That’s a word that’s been on my heart this season. With the semester now at a close… So much to say… The trials I faced through the past few months were, at times frustrating and brought me nearly to a point of dropping classes all together. Yet’ one thing kept me pressing on… LOVE!
Let me be more specific for ya’ll. Since my last post, I found myself so crunched timewise between school, work, Choir, volunteer work at the church (halloween carnival) doctors/ Chiropractic appointments, ect. all while trying to manage the pain I’ve been in off and on and maintain a family life that doing anything outside of it was nearly impossible. I found myself completely staying away from any form of exercise (including ab work) simply because my body was hurting and I really have felt the need to heal. This was such a huge challenge for me! With pressures of classes, I found I needed an outlet and God provided one! I soon began to draw!
Without going into too much detail about draining trials I’ll say this… They included further blood testing to find out why my white blood cell count is still low, an injured pet that we ended up having to seek financial support for help to cover, a situation I needed to fix one my car, news about the horrific shape my troubled loved one is in and more… Between that and the war in my body…. I barely had the strength to press on through finals. However, there are always blessings in the storms of life! At the Halloween carnival, Alex Ramon’s assistant (Megan Doyle) hooked up the sweetest care package full of my favorite college snacks and drinks! Also, my modern day pen pal, Emily (who I hope to one day meet), sent a huge care package for my family and me full of food and clothing AND bible study materials! Plus… People at random from my church reached out to help. It’s incredible! Always, just when my family and I needed it!
Now… Here it is… Another break, and yes… The stress of school and struggles landed me in bed off and on  for the first few days. Knowing that there’s help out there, just praying for the miracle of provision to get it…. I continue to do what God has placed before me, taking one step at at time, trusting that He knows best! The love for my troubled loved one and for her little one that mom and I care for is truly helps me press on! With that, I’ll share some food victories with y’all. Also, before I go…

Food victories:

1.I got to try a new brand of cereal called Purely Pinole, which I TOTALLY love!

2. Oatmeal for lunch… and no… I didn’t work out during that time, so it was a BIG victory. It was a combination of Trader Joe’s gluten free oats and Rachel’s overnight oats (both the Purely Pinole and the Rachel’s were gifts from my dear pen pal Emily which were sent in a beautiful care package).

3. I started ditching my obsession with fat free yogurt for lowfat yogurt and kefir.

4. The Sunday before Christmas, I enjoyed fellowship at my God mothers’s church where they provided a meal of spanish rice, steamed veggies with EVOO, cod baked in EVOO, and salad… for me.. this was a big step out in social eating. Also, it was a BIG victory!

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In closing, I have a few questions for you…

What is your favorite part of Christmas?

What’s you favorite Christmas carol?

What do you do when it seems that nothing seems to go right in life?

Do you have any New Years resolutions?

Adventures in Wonderful World of Drama 125, Pilates ,swim , precalculus , Anatomy with cadavers and PB&J.

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Here it is the end of another semester! As my heading said…it was full of Adventures and the wonderful world of Drama 125, Pilates swim pre calculus and Anatomy with cadavers and PB&J! Wait! Did I just say cadavers and peanut butter and jelly? Yep! An odd combination, however that’s how Anatomy Labs went! All through the semester, my amazing professor served penut butter and jelly during lab AND had us study cadavers… Think about it… Wakes… Funerals…. Death seems to be comforted by food.
Now in my last post I told you all about some challenges I’ve faced with the trouble of one, our car breaking down, my grandmother’s passing, the details behind her passing, and yet another financial situation. As the semester went on from there , the stress increased. With the weight of classes , Financial struggles, troubles with my mom’s new car (yes I drive.. Details regarding my car situation are in long past posts) random issues flaring up in my body , the semester was truly one for my personal record books! By the time last Friday rolled around , I was preparing for my pre Calculus, anatomy, and Drama 125 exams and dealing with heart pains. This turned into a trip to the ER. Of course never a dull moment in my world. There I got on the scale and the reality set in… 96 lbs in the middle of the day! I had a pair of sweats on over a pair of athletic pants, PLUS my shoes and had just eaten…. Ummm yeah of course my heart was hurting! A chat with a doctor pulled the elephant out of the room for display! Apparently with all the running around I’ve been doing I wasn’t 100% making sure I was nourish myself. While I was trying to eat healthy the conclusion the doctor and I both came to is that I was either not getting enough calories in or I need to get my thyroid checked! So, I’ve decided to check both sides of the spectrum. However, there’s always a blessing in the storm. A dear friend of mine that I used to work for came out and asked how I was doing and offered to help. Mom and I had no idea what we’re going to do as far as getting clean clothes done or getting food for the next couple weeks, so like an angel he dropped by with some support! Thankfully, we were able to pay our bills and get food and laundry taken care of. I was then able to go into finals fueled and clean! I went into my precalc examn confident and ready and… Came out witht he same confindence. Then, went on to finish my Drama 125, Pilates and Anatomy examns over the next couple of days. When I finished my Anatomy exam, I looked back over the semester and all the fears I faced and the strange yet understandable combination of viewing dead people along with lunch being served (I took my own sprouted grain with almond butter), precalculus (I have severe math anxiety), and many more. By the end of my pilates exam… I was exausted and ready for break! However, was not looking forward to the possibility of being stuck in my apartment for another achool break. Thankfully, the day after classes ended, I recieved a call from my cousins ssying they wanted to meet up with me and help me get out to my grandmother’s memorial. Apparently, the family member that has a restraining order on them has moved back to Hawaii, so… I was safe to go! On the way up there, mom’s car started overheating… However… We still were able to meet up with them. What a blessing! I got to enjoy 3 days catching up with my beautiful family, celebrating the life of my grandmother, PLUS I got to kick off my birthday week by being treated to a tour of San Francisco! Every moment was bliss!  The freedom I craved for sooo long was finally mine. Yet this was only for a moment. When they dropped me back off at home… I was back to facing reality… Mom’s car needing work, struggling with finances again… And this morning… I went for a walk with my nephew to find …. The injury that put me in bed fall of 2014 and again last summer and has left me prisoner in my apartment time after time decided to flare up again leaving me in bed most of the day… Apparently the combination of stress from finals, sitting for hours at a time in class and running around like a kid yesterday (so worth it) took its toll on my body. Along with that comes the fact that I still don’t have access to the treatment I need… So, yet another giant I face. When it rains it pours right? However, I choose today to focus on the good things once more…

1. I have my family again and am no longer alianated
2. I really got to get to know my Aunty Denise who has such a beautiful soul!
3. I had one of the best days thay I,ve had in a long, long time and got to feel like a kid again!
4. Right now I’m given yet another opportunity to trust God… From prison to praise. I choose to praise in the prison of my current circumstaces.
5. I have time to focus more on my project for ministry. My pain for someone else’s healing… What a blessing!

Today, I’ll close with a recipe for nana ice cream that has made things a little sweeter for me these days! It tastes just like chocolate icecream without a hint of banana!

Chocolate Nana Icecream
(Serves 2)
*Ingredients*
-2 large, over ripe bananas
-1/4 cup nonfat lacrose free milk
-1tbs hershey cocoa
*directions*
Slice over ripe bananas into thin slices and place them into a freezer bag and freeze them for 2 hours or over night. Pull them out of the freezer, place into a blender or food processor with the milk and cocoa, blend until smooth and serve! You can also put it in the freezer to eat at a later time if need be.

I pray ya’ll are doing well and have the opportunity to try out this delicious treat!

Crossing the Jordan

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Back again after a looong pause! Hope ya’ll have had an amazing month! I, well… Have been in turbo mode! Praising all the way! From church to classes to homework and quizzes to rehearsals for “All In The Timing” to Doctor’s appointments, physical therapy appointments, and various counselor appointments all while praying for provision and working around bus schedules and asking friends for rides… all I can say is, the Lord told me to cross over, but He didn’t say it would be easy! In the midst of it all, there’s just been an amazing peace. While the pressures of school work, family, finances, a recent cold/flu bug that I just got over and rehabbing from this “irritation” as I like to call it have brought on all new levels of stress… the Lord has been with me every step of the way. I wake up every morning, praising God for another day, thanking Him for all He has done and continues to do. Also, I’ve learned to quit asking Him to deliver me from this mess and start asking Him to guide me through it. To give me strength to press on even at times when things have seemed to be almost unbearable. I’m learning to grow where I’ve been planted, and maaaannnn have I grown! Praise GOD! SO, I’ll close today with no recipe or workout, just a simple word of encouragement… whatever you’re facing… our GOD is MUCH bigger than anything we could every face! Trust in Him to lead and guide you and remember…

“Oh love the Lord all you saints! For the Lord preserves the faithful, and fully repays the proud person. Be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart. All you who hope in the Lord.”

Psalm 31:23-24