Adventures in Wonderful World of Drama 125, Pilates ,swim , precalculus , Anatomy with cadavers and PB&J.


Here it is the end of another semester! As my heading said…it was full of Adventures and the wonderful world of Drama 125, Pilates swim pre calculus and Anatomy with cadavers and PB&J! Wait! Did I just say cadavers and peanut butter and jelly? Yep! An odd combination, however that’s how Anatomy Labs went! All through the semester, my amazing professor served penut butter and jelly during lab AND had us study cadavers… Think about it… Wakes… Funerals…. Death seems to be comforted by food.
Now in my last post I told you all about some challenges I’ve faced with the trouble of one, our car breaking down, my grandmother’s passing, the details behind her passing, and yet another financial situation. As the semester went on from there , the stress increased. With the weight of classes , Financial struggles, troubles with my mom’s new car (yes I drive.. Details regarding my car situation are in long past posts) random issues flaring up in my body , the semester was truly one for my personal record books! By the time last Friday rolled around , I was preparing for my pre Calculus, anatomy, and Drama 125 exams and dealing with heart pains. This turned into a trip to the ER. Of course never a dull moment in my world. There I got on the scale and the reality set in… 96 lbs in the middle of the day! I had a pair of sweats on over a pair of athletic pants, PLUS my shoes and had just eaten…. Ummm yeah of course my heart was hurting! A chat with a doctor pulled the elephant out of the room for display! Apparently with all the running around I’ve been doing I wasn’t 100% making sure I was nourish myself. While I was trying to eat healthy the conclusion the doctor and I both came to is that I was either not getting enough calories in or I need to get my thyroid checked! So, I’ve decided to check both sides of the spectrum. However, there’s always a blessing in the storm. A dear friend of mine that I used to work for came out and asked how I was doing and offered to help. Mom and I had no idea what we’re going to do as far as getting clean clothes done or getting food for the next couple weeks, so like an angel he dropped by with some support! Thankfully, we were able to pay our bills and get food and laundry taken care of. I was then able to go into finals fueled and clean! I went into my precalc examn confident and ready and… Came out witht he same confindence. Then, went on to finish my Drama 125, Pilates and Anatomy examns over the next couple of days. When I finished my Anatomy exam, I looked back over the semester and all the fears I faced and the strange yet understandable combination of viewing dead people along with lunch being served (I took my own sprouted grain with almond butter), precalculus (I have severe math anxiety), and many more. By the end of my pilates exam… I was exausted and ready for break! However, was not looking forward to the possibility of being stuck in my apartment for another achool break. Thankfully, the day after classes ended, I recieved a call from my cousins ssying they wanted to meet up with me and help me get out to my grandmother’s memorial. Apparently, the family member that has a restraining order on them has moved back to Hawaii, so… I was safe to go! On the way up there, mom’s car started overheating… However… We still were able to meet up with them. What a blessing! I got to enjoy 3 days catching up with my beautiful family, celebrating the life of my grandmother, PLUS I got to kick off my birthday week by being treated to a tour of San Francisco! Every moment was bliss!  The freedom I craved for sooo long was finally mine. Yet this was only for a moment. When they dropped me back off at home… I was back to facing reality… Mom’s car needing work, struggling with finances again… And this morning… I went for a walk with my nephew to find …. The injury that put me in bed fall of 2014 and again last summer and has left me prisoner in my apartment time after time decided to flare up again leaving me in bed most of the day… Apparently the combination of stress from finals, sitting for hours at a time in class and running around like a kid yesterday (so worth it) took its toll on my body. Along with that comes the fact that I still don’t have access to the treatment I need… So, yet another giant I face. When it rains it pours right? However, I choose today to focus on the good things once more…

1. I have my family again and am no longer alianated
2. I really got to get to know my Aunty Denise who has such a beautiful soul!
3. I had one of the best days thay I,ve had in a long, long time and got to feel like a kid again!
4. Right now I’m given yet another opportunity to trust God… From prison to praise. I choose to praise in the prison of my current circumstaces.
5. I have time to focus more on my project for ministry. My pain for someone else’s healing… What a blessing!

Today, I’ll close with a recipe for nana ice cream that has made things a little sweeter for me these days! It tastes just like chocolate icecream without a hint of banana!

Chocolate Nana Icecream
(Serves 2)
-2 large, over ripe bananas
-1/4 cup nonfat lacrose free milk
-1tbs hershey cocoa
Slice over ripe bananas into thin slices and place them into a freezer bag and freeze them for 2 hours or over night. Pull them out of the freezer, place into a blender or food processor with the milk and cocoa, blend until smooth and serve! You can also put it in the freezer to eat at a later time if need be.

I pray ya’ll are doing well and have the opportunity to try out this delicious treat!


Being real partners well with brownies!


Time to be real…

Hello all… Yessss it’s been too long! Between going from precalculus to anatomy to drama 125, pilates and swim classes along with the whirlwinds of life… At times I’ve wanted to blog yet have not had the mental or emotional strength to really dig in and just do. Even now I’m aalmot hesitant to continue however… I found there are times that I just need to go with the internal prompt to blog my heart out!
That being said… I left you all at the begining of this semester and I was facing more issues with injury and a full load of courses… All I can say is…. Thank God I’ve made it this far! Since then, the semester has been like one giant roller coaster. From cramming my head with precalculous and anatomy to dealing with battles with my health and family I can honestly say that this semester has definitely forced me to take every bit of faith that I’ve got to press through and continue. To be more specific… With one injury subsiding, another one would pop up, my tablet that contained a good portion of my work and memories broke and lost everything, a situation came up with my troubled family member putting us in a position to have to give temporary care for her new little guy, and mom’s car broke down leaving us needing to take the bus (putting extra stress on my body while trying to heal and even greater strain on our financial situation). My Grandmother on my dad’s side of the family passed away and due to the restraining order I have on my dad who lived with her… I hadn’t been able to see her in over two years and had barely been able to speak with her over the phone and… I found out about her passing over facebook! My cell phone broke twice… I watched several people get to train for and run races I’ve had on my dream list forever now… And now… Here it is… Two weeks left in the semester… I have a cell phone but no service (using it like a tablet with the wifi connection  available to me to create this post), random flare ups in my body, facing uncertainty about finances and how my family and I will make it through the next few days… Weeks … Ect… However, it’s in this moment that I’m finding I can take joy in the little things. For instance… Looking back over the semester I went in finding it hard to walk right again, yet have been able to push through. Despite things being constantly taken from me… Moments I’ve prayed for have been granted. I got to meet my troubled loved one’s little guy (who I hadn’t gotten to see at all), the business I have been blueprinting for several years now was invested in, the ministry that will partner with that buisness is soon to be put up for discussion in a leadership board meeting,  I got to sit at lunch with my God mamma and celebrate her victory at the Boston marathon AND she gave me an autographed picture from one of my running inspirations (Shalane Flanagan), I got to meet Jen Bricker (amazing arialist with no legs), have almost mastered precalculus (I couldn’t even pass algebra in HS), ran on a track 3 times (never give up), my love for the performing arts has been fueled even greater (in choir and in Drama 125), I’ve been able to make connections with people on the bus, work and at school and give them the hope of Christ and even offer prayer to some of them and the best part? I was able to have a real, fun birthday party for my beautiful nephew. This… Was a BIG blessing considering most holidays have been full of stress for us. All in all I can truley say what God Mamma says best… Count your blessings! While I am human… I’ve complained about things many times… I’ve gotten tierd of dealing with pain and the fact that there’s treatment available that because of my financial situation am unable to recieve, I’ve been angry that even little things keep getting taken from me, however… Those are times I’ve learned to just refocus and realize that life is not about my comfort. Life is about living for Christ and loving others through a heart that loves Christ. If I can encourage and give hope to someone in the midst of my drowning circumstances… What greater joy could I recieve than to see someone get that moment of comfort? In closing I want to leave y’all with a new gluten free brownie recipe! I made it for the ladies at choir and it was a total hit soooo I hope y’all with get the opportunity to test it out for yourselves!

Gluten free brownies

A little note… these do contain bananas, however you can’t even taste them! It tastes like pure chocolate goodness!

-2 & 1/2 cups oat flour
– 2 & 1/4 tsp baking powder
– 3/4 tsp baking soda
– 3 tbs Hershey cocoa powder
-3/4 cups of raw brown sugar
-3/4 cups pure cane sugar
– 1 cup mashed overripe banana
– 1 whole egg and 1 egg white. You may substitute the whole egg for 2 egg whites

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Greece 2 – inch deep cake pan with olive oil and use gluten free flour to coat the oil lightly. Mix wet ingredients and dry seperately then combine. Put mix into the pan , and place in oven to bake for 15 to 20 minutes or until you can poke a toothpick in the center and have it come out clean. Set it out to cool and enjoy with some non-fat frozen yogurt or one of my new favorite products, a few tbs of vanilla flavored Elli quark spread over the top like icing!

I hope you all get to try this new recipe! Feel free to give me your comments below if you do!